Colin Wilson

        My boyfriend has recenlty been reading a book called The Occult by Colin Wilson. Everytime he reads a section he gets this look of awe in his eyes. Last night I asked him to read me a section while I finished folding laundry. I know it didn't take long for that look to come into my eyes also.....I'm not sure what to say except for wow!!! It might have been the most intellectual and thought provoking thing I have heard in quit some time. It's funny, everytime my beau reads a part of this book, it seems somehow to relate to what's going on in our life at the time. I myself do not believe in coincidences. This section explained the boredom of life in a way I have never thought of, and ways to deal with it. I can't quote the whole section here but this exert should help....

   "It must be understood first that there is no basic difference between  'mystical' experiences and experiences that belong to the realm of magic or the occult. Because hid consciousness has evolved too fast, man has loat contact with his real identity. When his inner pressure is low - when he is in a state of boredom or aimlessness - he is aware only of the superficial level of his identity. The more deeply he feels, the more of himself he is aware of. This is why Yeats says:

                                When....a man is fighting mad,
                                Something drops from eyes long blind,
                                He completes his partial mind,
                                For an instant stands at ease,
                                Laughs aloud, his heart at peace... "       Colin Wilson - The Occult

At first I wasn't sure about this...then I thought for a few minutes of the times when I had gotten to the point of extreme emotion, when I was fighting with someone and on the brink of snapping. It was at those times, when I had had enough or couldn't take anymore or cry anymore tears, that I would always seem to step back and look at things totally different, as a whole. I'm sure I have not done this book justice but I truly cannot recommend it enough.

Colin Wilson, The Occult

      

Savannah Georgia

A few years ago my boyfriend and I stayed in Savannah for a few days before we headed to Florida. The place was captivating and I wish we could have stayed longer. I especially loved visiting River Street and all of its shops. I wanted to share a few pictures, I think you can judge by looking at them what an absolutely charming place it is.

Halloween Follow-up

I thought since I wrote about dressing up on Halloween that I should post a few pictures of our costumes. Hey they would scare me if I were a kid!

Ignorance I Think

Well here is my random thought of today. A few years ago I was talking to a man I knew and he said something that upset me. He said "if a women isn't pleasing her man at home he has the right to cheat." I was taken back and thought he was just trying to rattle my cage at first, but no, he was very serious. Then I wanted to punch him in his ignorant pecker, but I don't think that would have gotten the point across somehow. We continued to argue for a few minutes, I was offended as could be. I have been cheated on in the past, as I'm sure most of the world has, and it hurt to hear something like that. I hold true to my stance on this statement to this day, but really, do people actually think like this? I mean both women and men, it does go both ways. I am curious to know how much of the population has this sort of mentality. Seriously!

Relationships

I guess just like everyone's relationship, mine has fallen on hard times recently. This have been patched up as of last night but it still leaves me wondering what happened in the first place. SO many things come down to communication. But where did that go wrong? We use to talk for hours and let each other know how we're feeling. We seem to get caught up in the everyday life and it makes us bitter inside. Doing the routine things, get up go to work come home and do it all over again. This is the kind of life we never wanted, and I suppose we're making the best of it. We recently bought our first home together and all its malfunctions. We love it love it don't get me wrong! But it sometimes amazes me how hard you truly have to work to have a successful relationship. It is so easy to slip into the everyday thing....same thing..over and over. It makes me wonder sometimes, what's the point? These silly things that I do everyday, cleaning, laundry etc. don't make me happy. Granted they need to be done, but I wonder what the point is if they don't make you happy? We need something to make us happy in life so those things don't seem so bad, and so the routine life doesn't bring us down so much. I think more travel is in order!!! Going on adventures and seeing new places...ahhhh that's what life is for! Of course that's hard to do when money is so tight... Maybe we could go somewhere local that we've never been? Start there and slowly go further and further away until we decide to never come back. That sounds nice. Everyone should go on trips if they can! I think it's amazing how much it can lift your spirit to see something new and take in the smells you never have.
I wonder how many people have relationships that they aren't happy with. How many people are just unhappy in their day to day life and they have gotten use to it? It makes me sad to think about that. I'm not generally a depressing person, nor do I go around being negative and bringing people down. I suppose these are just things I need to get out of my system.

Halloween

Well tomorrow I will be busy scaring the neighborhood children, so I thought I would write this a day early. How I love Halloween!! I loved it when I was a child and imagine forever will. It's one day a year when its smiled upon to look as ugly as you can, and when people laugh when you scare their children. Granted my family always takes into consideration the age of the child before we scare them, we're not heartless! It seems like being scared is a right of passage of sorts that grants you access to the heavenly candy bowl and all its sweet wisdom. A good spook always makes for some excitement! That's why we still go to haunted houses right? There's a thrill and some sense of excitement there that breaks up our everyday mundane lives. I am always to scared to go myself....I'm a big chicken I guess. I love to scare, I just can't take it back very well...... Ever wonder what sort of things are really out there in the night on Halloween? I mean the things that really scare! What if there were a true horror following you from house to house, always staying within the shadows, watching and waiting for its time. Each year it follows and waits, hoping to finally get its chance and rip the soul from your body. Alas this might not be its time....there's always next year...

Blogging

Well being as this is my first blog, I thought I would write about....wait for it......blogging! Why do you suppose people feel compelled to blog in the first place? Is it a way to be finally be heard over the million voices of everyday life? A way to reach out! As I understand it there are some bloggers that make quit a bit of money. For that who would blame them for their blogging ways? Write on I say! I think I decided to start blogging as a way to get out those random thoughts that pop up in my head throughout the day. Why do they do that? Maybe it's a collection of thoughts and emotions looking for a release, or a certain issue you need to focus on in your life. I don't see how a certain brand of cleaning product would have such an impact on my emotional well-being that it needs to weasel its way around in my head at random points, but her who knows!? The body is a mysterious vessel is it not? Maybe one day I will blog about this cleaning product and finally get it out of my system....the way it has disappointed me so! It is a deceiving thing I think! Ah but anyway, thank you for sticking with me through these random thought processes, after all, I am a simple person trying to let her voice be heard no?